lately God has really pressed it upon my heart that nothing is certain. we truly have no idea what the future holds and what will happen tomorrow. it breaks my heart to see all the stories in the paper of accidents where young people have died - someone was distracted, someone didn't see the stop sign, someone was drunk, someone was on their cell phone, the list goes on, and b/c of that list, multiple people have been injured, even killed. this past week a young woman and her 6 week old baby were killed. 6 WEEKS OLD!! that precious child will never know the joys and pains of growing up, as a matter of fact, neither will that young mother. it seems like more and more teens are dying in accidents. it's so sad! their tomorrow is never certain.
the main thing that God has been showing me is that you never know what tomorrow brings, so don't let it slip away. "live like there's no tomorrow" - tell those you love that you love them b/c you never know if you'll ever get that chance again. it has become a habit in my family to say "bye, love you" as we hang up the phone. that way, the last thing we said to that person was that we love them. that's something that i don't think is done often enough.
i was recently talking to my boyfriend about his mom - he's been away from home for two years and his mother misses him immensely. he barely gets to talk to her and when he does, it's not very long and usually through email. we don't know what our future holds; we have to take advantage of the life we have now and live it to the full!
i've been trying to incorporate that in my daily life lately - i haven't really been working much this summer, so it's given me time to hang out w/ my family more; i've been able to go out to lunch w/ my mom and sisters more, play w/ my nephews and go to the zoo, go to my Aunt's and hang out w/ my cousins all day. i want to be able to do these things while i still can, before it's too late and everything is taken away from me! God has blessed me w/ so much in life, i don't want to lose it or have Him take it away from me w/o enjoying it. i want to live my life free, happy, and not regret things or wish i had done it differently.
although, it seems the things that i'm most afraid of losing, i hold on to them so tightly, that i feel like they'll still slip through my fingers if i'm not careful. i'm afraid that if i care too much, i'll push it away and lose everything. it's hard to love w/o fear. even though i want to be brave, live my life to the fullest and not look back, i'm still fearful and at times feel like i'm walking on eggshells. i need to stay strong in the Lord, lean on Him, and give it all up to Him - he will provide and care for me.

God's will be done! Lord be w/ me!